Depression

from Disassociation Fugue by enola reven

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If I could be happy
If I could find any reason to smile..

What am I doing here? No one cares.
Nobody wants me around unless I give them something.
What's the point of getting out of bed?
Everyone is fake...

I finally find the will to go outside
by clinging to some arbitrary reason
or maybe I'm just motivated by my fears

Everywhere I look around me...
Why are they so happy?
What is so pleasant?

Why would you want to be
a part of the world like a ghost?
Unappreciated and forgotten...
can't help the way you are, being your own worst enemy
unintentionally.

These other people,
they have the privilege to smile.
But unless I just delude myself,
I don't have a reason like them.

Mistrust...fear...discomfort
and the burning of tears that can't come out.

Maybe I just have trouble accepting that happiness is misery.

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from Disassociation Fugue, released April 5, 2020
Music & lyrics - HIMITSU
Intro & Outro - Kashiwa HANG

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