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Disassociation Fugue

from Disassociation Fugue by enola reven

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Fragments of myself are talking to me
Couldn't tell you what I think because I
don't know who I am

Just want to die because my mind is
already dead.

You can't save me from this
inevitable disintegration of my mind.

(My fears possess me and I dont remember anything...)

We all have to go sometime.

Thought I had a soul but I am empty, I am epmty.
Thought I had a heart but there's no feeling, there's no feeling.
The truth is I am never alone,
and I don't want to be.

I'm afraid of myself, but I'm afraid without me.
Confusion hurts like nothing else
I can't tell what's real or what's a dream
anymore.

I see things that no one else sees
but they would never believe me.
It's just a bunch of harmless thoughts.

If I told anyone they'd just put me in a cage.
But I WANT to be free, and I WANT to be sane, and I WANT to be happy.

But...that...conflicts with my true desires.
I have to run far away, start again, forget everything that I knew,
be like a child again.

Thought I had a soul but I am empty, I am epmty.
Thought I had a heart but there's no feeling, there's no feeling.
The truth is I am never alone,
and I don't want to be.

I can't tell the difference between you and myself.

Am I going crazy?

I want to go crazy because it's much easier than trying to appear normal.

I'm NOT 'FINE'.

So disoriented

Wanna fucking hide from this...



GO AWAY.

...I cannot hide from this other me.

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from Disassociation Fugue, released April 5, 2020
Music & Lyrics - HIMITSU

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